June 4th, 2020

 Day 79: Every morning O wakes up and holds about a 30 minute conversation as I am half awake and half falling back to sleep, he always has something he was thinking of building or making, this morning it was scorpion origami and alligator wrestling. He is on a whole different brain level than me. Spent the morning after going to bed at 4am finishing up the preschool graduation

pictures! Trying to get 29 preschoolers to pose in one picture all together with swinging tassels and caps on their heads! . We took to the pool in the afternoon, hot hot hot ! So, I couldn’t post this yesterday because I was just too upset and I was mad. Yes, I was really mad!! When I go silent, I am really mad. . My very first, beautiful gnome was vandalized in the woods. Now, considering the current world situations (very low on the care and worry). However it was very personal to me. After my first response and several curse words in my head, I went back inside and made had a little fun with the signs. After lots of reflection, our neighborhood, god bless these kids, all came down to the woods with me, upset for me, helped me clean up, played, laughed, caught fireflies, showed compassion, showed excitement over the new playhouse and I could feel the mad leaving! We had a great talking point, we talked about how it felt that someone hurt one of us. Our sweet, bonus child, n, searched up security cameras for me and was showing me where I could purchase them and Griffin Cramp cried. When I told him “it’s ok buddy, we will get another one”. He said, with tears, “but it won’t be from grandma!”. So mom, if I do get another one, it will be “from” you. . He just might stay closer to home from now on. I forgot to post two rather big things we did today! We ordered a turtle and put a deposit down on a fluff ball! 2020/2021 is looking better!